Archive for August, 2009

something might be found to take its place

Aug. 31, 2009 No Comments Posted under: Uncategorized

i feel so strange lately. really stagnant. i’m happy and positive, but definitely just going through the motions. nothing is happening, i’m feeling pretty trapped. i’m a slave to working, and when i can get a ride or borrow a car. i hate it. i know i’m working towards my goal, which is exciting, but it’s so fucking boring right now.

i did have some excitement last week…i decided to go out for a bday celebration on thursday and it turned quite crazy. i broke some new year’s resolutions and made some new friends. but then i got sick all weekend from a bug that is going around work/family/friends. not good; i’ve never been so sick in my life. but in a positive light and in the least bulimic way possible, i did lose a lot of weight from working so much, working out, and now getting sick. whatev. i’m back to feeling healthy again, at least now i can eat and drink without feeling like i may die.

fall is coming, sadly. i like fall, but not what comes after. i feel like i didn’t really get a summer this year, having to split it between home and pennsylvania. i think i left it there, with a lot of other things.

happy almost-the-end-of-monday.
xxo

the dim of the day

Aug. 22, 2009 No Comments Posted under: Uncategorized

You’re locked in a room with the person you last kissed, any problems?
mmm, there could be some problems. especially if we’re in there for more than 10 minutes.

Have you ever kissed anyone who’s name starts with S, T,C or D?
yes, no, no, no. that i can think of at the moment..

Are you currently reading a book?
yes, a few actually; trying to finish A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genuis, and starting Small Wonders.

What is your current annoyance?
not really knowing what i’m doing tonight

What was the last beverage you had?
blueberry iced coffee

Are you someone who worries too often?
not really, no.

When was the last time you talked to the person you last kissed?
hmm, july i think.

Would you ever take someone back after they cheated on you?
i say no, but i think it would depend. i would like to think i wouldn’t.

Have you ever liked someone who all your friends hated?
i wouldn’t say hated, but some of them disliked one guy i dated.

Do you have any siblings?
yes, a brother

What did you do last night?
hung out with the girls then went to the lazy dog lol. then got some taco bell.

Does it matter if your bf/gf smokes?
i’d rather they didn’t on a regular basis, but it’s not really a deal breaker for me.

Do you know anyone who drinks a lot?
ummm, yes haha.

Could you go out in public, looking like you do now?
yep yep.

What color are your eyes?
greenish.

Who is the last male you talked to through a text?
my dad haha how sadddd.

Do you remember your dreams?
yes, sometimes.

Does anyone think you are a bitch?
i’m sure someone does lol.

Did you wake up before 8am this morning?
i did, but i fell back asleep.

Do you wear eyeliner?
not usually.

Did you speak to your father today?
yessss.

Do you miss your past?
just college life, but not really my past.

Have you ever skipped school just because you were tired?
yea haha.

Do you get mad easily?
no, not anymore.

Have you ever been around someone who was high?
yes.

Last thing you purchased?
a wedding shower card and gift. =)

What was your last bruise from?
work.

Have you ever felt like you weren’t good enough?
a few times here and there, but i like to believe in myself.

Did you dress up on Halloween? What were you?
hmmm i don’t remember actually..but i will this year!

Do you judge people you don’t know?
i try not to, but we all do i think.

Has anybody ever told you that you have pretty eyes?
yes, almost everyone i know.

Have you ever been asked out by someone you didn’t want to date?
yessss, and even just last week lol.

Has the last person you texted ever been mad at you before?
yes haha.

Have you ever searched for your own house on Google Earth?
yes!

Who is the ugliest person that you know?
i honestly don’t know..

When will be the next time you text someone?
any second now.

How much money did you spend today?
about $50

What will you be doing tomorrow?
not sure yet, depends on what i do tonight and how tired i am tomorrow. =)

Have you ever cried while in the shower?
yea, i think i have.

Do you know anyone that smokes pot?
yess, lots of people.

What’s something you really want right now?
to go out and meet some new and exciting people.

How do you feel about your hair right now?
it’s gross and definitely needs to be cut. i may do THAT tomorrow.

Have you ever slept in the same bed as your friend?
um yes.

Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?
i wish i knew! haha. and i wish i knew why i continued to after the first time!

Is your best friend a slut?
noooo, not at all!

Do you know anyone with the same name as you?
yes, a feww.

Last person you talked on the phone with?
umm, a cousin of mine.

What was the first thing you did this morning?
turned my phone off so i could sleep more lol.

What are you looking forward to right now?
visiting friends. =) and seeing ray in novemberrr.

Do you miss someone?
yes.

If you could go back in time and change something, would you?
no, i don’t think i would.

What did you do today?
shopped, got coffee, went to a bridal shower, came home and changed.

Have you ever done anything illegal?
yes.

Where will you be 5 hours from now?
i have NO idea yet! maybe salem, maybe lynn, maybe right here.

Has anyone ever borrowed something from you and never returned it back?
yes. =(

Have you ever ran away?
uh, no.

Truth or dare always turns sexual, doesn’t it?
yes!

Do you wish someone would turn up at your front door right now?
very much.

What is something you realized today?
it’s weird being the single girl at weddings and showers.

Do you want any children?
maybe one little bambino someday.

What was the last thing you laughed really hard about?
last night i laughed really hard about a lot of things.

What did you wake up to this morning?
texts and a phonecall.

Do you prefer group dates or single ones better?
hmm, it depends but i think group.

Last 4 people to text message you?
my dad, jonathan, katie and joyce.

Did you sleep alone last night?
yes.

How many piercings do you have?
2 now.

Do you want someone dead?
never!

How old do you look?
apparently 19. even though i’m almost 23..

Have you seen any of the Saw movies?
ew no.

Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?
definitely. at least one.

What are you listening to right now?
the fan.

Do you believe you can change someone?
ugh, my character flaw is trying to. i’ve realized you can’t, but you can help people grow.

Has someone ever spread a nasty rumor about you?
hahah yea. well, not nasty, but something untrue.

Did you kiss or hug anyone today?
both, but just kisses on the cheek.

When is your birthday?
january 28th.

and all you know, and how you speak

Aug. 16, 2009 No Comments Posted under: Uncategorized

i LOVE reading postsecrets every sunday. i get so emotional and i want to reach out to everyone i know. it’s something i really look forward to, in a silly way.

today is my dad’s birthday! we are going out soon. i just get reminded of his birthday a few years ago, and how i was a person i never want to be again. and i am motivated to be more positive. i think i’m doing good, though.

i had a dream that i was still living in williamsport, and it was winter and i didn’t even mind. i was walking outside in my socks. it was so strange and happy and real, and when i woke up i was truly astounded that it wasn’t real. i hate that.

the weather here is lovely, and i hope it is wherever you are. enjoy!

xxo

as a clam

Aug. 6, 2009 No Comments Posted under: Uncategorized

getting back to work has been better for me than i realized. it’s a nice, safe feeling to have something to do and to be making money on a regular, consistant basis. and i missed helping people.

i talked to the guys briefly tonight, well mainly jon but i heard the others in the background. it’s hard being able to picture them hanging out without me. right now. blah.

might i say, though, that there is nothing better for getting over missing/wanting people than to have your sights set on someone new. as i was just talking about with a friend, being interested in someone really does make everything else that much rosier. and i’m fine with it. i didn’t think i’d already have a crush on a new guy, but in the grand scheme of things, i have been home for a while now. i’m surprised it took this long. ;)

the longest vacation

Aug. 3, 2009 No Comments Posted under: Uncategorized

it was so hard and strange to go back to working full time today. the working part doesn’t bother me, i generally like the job and i love having something to do during the days. it’s just the real life, routine part of it. it’s not an ordinary job, but it’s ordinary to have a 8-4. can’t i just be a rock star?

i must back track, though, because i did have an exquisite weekend. the week was pretty good, too. but saturday we had a cook out for shannon coming home and me graduating, and it was really fun. then we had a little sleepover and the next morning we headed out early for prudence island. we spent the day meeting my cousin joyce’s soon to be in-laws, and it was really fun. the island is beautiful and i cannot wait to see more of it, nevermind spend the wedding weekend there. i jetskied for the first time, it was like motorcycling on the water - exhilerating!

working is strange, getting rides sucks, i’m concerned about my pay. but other than those things, i’m feeling beautifully normal and kind of back to things.

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